Thursday, 05 February 2009

• My One Best Friend

  Growing up, we definitely were not that closed knitted. You were always off doing your own thing, and I was busy being a child and discovering new things every day. You didn't need me around. Eventually you became a protector. I knew I could rely on you when things went wrong, yet still, you were finishing high school, and you wanted to have your fun. So you weren't always there. We left, and in that time, I knew how much I begun to miss you. That one year was so hard. When you got engaged, I cried. Not just because I didn't like her, but because I figured I wouldn't ever see you again.

  The engagement never lasted, you were still wanting to have fun and she was too controlling, so you moved in with us. I had you back. Times were hard then. The home became extremely chaotic, and there was never any silence in there. Of course we had our days, I begun to grow up, and I wanted my fun, it was my time, but you were trying to protect me. I still remember that day I called you crying, I needed you so badly then, and when you gave me the cold shoulder, I thought I wouldn't be able to forgive you. I didn't think I was going to live through that day. I know why you did it though. We all have to find our own way to fight back in some sense, thats what you wanted me to learn.

  The last year living there, when you had your first born, everything changed in my life. You were part of that reason, as was she. You pushed me, you believed in me, and knew I would be just fine without you. Of course I'm still alive to this day, of course I survived, but I will always need you. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be headed in the direction I'm going in. I would still be doing what I do now. You always believed in me and believed in a future for myself. You are my inspiration to make a difference. I could have never done any of this without you.

  You were one of the only people who kept all my secrets. I can trust you, no matter what the secret is. You are so easy to open up to now, so easy to trust. You don't judge me, you don't argue my point, you understand me. You know that of course no one is the same, and everyone deals with things differently, you try to comprehend things on why I deal with things differently than you. Yet you still understand no matter what it is. If I have something bothering me or I need an opinion, it's always been you I go to now, I couldn't have asked for a better friend. I love coming to your place and staying the weekend, hanging out, going places, I enjoy getting out and coming to relax, even though I'm always on the go.

  You're not only the greatest brother I could ask for, half or not, but the greatest friend I could ever have. The only person I can have an actual grown up conversation with and who doesn't treat me like I am ten. You are everything I could have ever asked for, thank you so much.

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