Friday, 24 April 2009

• Shocking Realizations

  I have just spent the past two and a have weeks having a house to myself. It was relaxing, minus the whole being sick deal. What I am about to say doesn't make me view my parents any differently, or love them any less, it's just a realization. My mood swings and my health are 70-75% affected by them and their actions. I mean, yeah I still had my little days, but its just rare. Not having them around has actually been pretty nice, don't get me wrong though, I did miss having them around. I just don't miss the fact that the person I am when they are home wasn't here a lot. That person, well I don't care where that person was, she just wasn't here, and that's fine by me.

  I guess it just all goes back to the fact they just don't get it. They don't realize that the way they sit there and what they say actually bothers me. I just don't know how to make them realize this. How do you tell the people you love that you are so much better when they are not around without sounding like a completely heartless person? Sadly, I am already dreading the fact that they will be home in a matter of two days. I can see it now, my dad will have something to bitch about, not sure about what yet, but he's going to bitch about something. It's his nature, I can see it now. Another reason why I can't wait to move off to school.

  I feel so bad for saying all of this.

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